Dating a 20 year old at the age of 17 wasn’t the smartest move I’ve made in my life. Being 18 and finding out that I was having a child really wasn’t what I expected for Valentine’s Day…you know, the whole not being married and having a baby thing. I was thinking, “What is everyone going to think about me?” Then, having to move from one place to another wasn’t helping my confidence in having a child very much. Knowing that every first of the month I would have to find a new place to live wasn’t going to be easy for me as a single, pregnant girl.
When I finally found Bethany House I was about ready to give up my son for adoption to some people that I didn’t even know because my boyfriend had said that unless I did he wouldn’t date me anymore. Had not these wonderful people at Bethany House shown me love and kindness, I would have placed my child up for adoption and become embittered. I would not have known how to love and care for someone.
I was adopted at seven days old and raised in a huge family. My mother had lots of children to take care of and never really had time for little Lindsey. I didn’t want my relationship with my son to turn out like my mother’s and mine: seeming unloving, uncaring and totally neglectful. When I thought I knew what I wanted from life, she and I lost what little relationship we had.
Since, I have learned so much about myself and what I really want and need. Mainly, I want to be loved and I need to start loving myself before anyone can get anywhere near me. Having Logan is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. After being told by two doctors that I wasn’t able to have children, having him was awesome. Yes, I will be the first to admit that at my age it wasn’t the smartest thing to have done, but it happened and I love my son and will raise him to the best of my ability with the help of the people here and close friends of mine.
Being at Bethany House has taught me how to care for my son and my self, cook, and do basic cleaning and maintenance. Although we may have to follow a few rules at Bethany House, being here has been the best thing that could happen for me. The girls that come in and out of here are great, but they need help like I did and still do. The staff are wonderful, God-filled people. I’m not much of a religious person, but being around them has shown me that someone up there really is watching over us down here. If there is anything you want to find out about yourself, then all you have to do is look beyond yourself for help.
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